Live Life into the Fullest daw sabi ni DREAM

Im a Chronic Lymphocytic Leukemia stage 2 carrier, I know Im too young for this disease Im only just 15 years old .. Damn disease kills me every day .. I attempt suicide last july 5, 2011 but it wasn’t successful. My uncle see me hanging in that ladder with string on my neck. I know that’s a sin but I just want my life to be easy. Leukemia plus broken hearted brings my mind to an unnecessary decision in my life. I love him so much and I can’t live without him, how would be my future without aFUTURE HUSBAND without my DREAM. I spent a lot of time caring and loving him, full attention , but that was not enough. Now he love’s another girl and every time i visit his wall it hurts me a lot. I miss the way he texted me every morning when he wake up “good morning dream kaen ka na pag gising mo iloveyou:*” but now no more text like that. When it was late at night he will text me“dream tulog na tayo good night sweetDREAMs see you in DREAMland  iloveyou and I want you to be the only girl that i love for the rest  of my life” Now tell me how would be my life without him, without the man of my DREAMs, without the man where i promised my FUTURE. Now he came back my DREAM is with me again but i know that his just force to do that because he wants me to be happy and enjoy my last days here on earth. Fucking Shit I feel I’m so damn no one loves and cares me at all. Were only just friends but i still love him more than a friend.  OMG i want the old HIM the old us the DREAM. :/  I guess it’s easy for me to die rather than take all this problems, take all this pain. Haiissst.. Damn Life :’(  Damn Cancer .. I hate my Life so Much :/

My Future, My Dream By: Aries V. Macandili

Dream.. I know marami akong naging kasalanan sayo. Katulad na lang nung sinabi mo, yung pambabasag ko sayo sa harapan ng madaming tao. Tapos yung pag iwas ko sayo minsan. Marami din tayong naging away.. Pero ang malaking tanong ng lahat, KAYO BA? :( (Di ako makasagot minsan pag tinatanong nila ko ng ganyan. :D)

Alam ko ako lang ang may ayaw. Alam ko nahihirapan ka na.. Nararamdaman ko yun. Nakikita ko.

Sorry sa lahat ng maling nagawa ko sayo.  Sorry dream aa.. Kung nasaktan kita..

Ngayon, aalis ka na papuntang Batangas para mag-aral, iiwanan mo na ko. Mag-iingat ka lagi. Mamimiss kita. :'(

Sana di mo pa din makalimutan na may naiwan kang DREAM/FUTURE dito sa Mandaluyong.

Nagsisimula na kasing mangyari yung mga sinabi ko sayo sa Linear Park eh..

Yung mga UNEXPECTED. :( (DRAMA KO! :D)

Dream mahal na mahal kita.. And you know that.. Sorry ulet sa lahat. Will you ever forgive me? :'(

Kung may 100 dahilan para iwan ka, hahanap pa din ako ng isang dahilan para ipaglaban ka. :)

I’ll stop loving you the day a mute woman tells a deaf man that a blind girl saw a paralyzed boy walking on water or if a mango grows on an apple tree on the 30th day of February .

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pEtPnPKddhE (Watch mo kanta ko yan para kay Papa.. :D)